The art of discernment:
We must discern for ourselves what is right: Job 34:4
This simple scripture has definitely guided my time here in Cameroun. Through two weeks of discernment, observation, and intense reflection I have decided to leave and resign from the African American Academy for a number of reasons. One being, the school’s underdevelopment (despite its 17 years of business), lots of miscommunication and instability with principals and administrators, and a general ‘gut’ feeling that my teaching style, personality, and talents would not be an appropriate fit for the militaristic environment at the school. This decision was ridiculously difficult given my strong love for Africa and Cameroun itself, but also, my desire for things to work out and to complete my tenure. However, the important lesson is that there are things that cannot be changed, for instance, someone’s perspective on African-centeredness that is narrow minded and extensively about Egypt, policies and procedures at the school designed to keep teachers stunted in their growth and buried in paperwork, and a military like regime that all teachers, staff, and students must follow. If these things were adaptable, flexible, and open to change then I would remain here in Cameroun. However, they are not. With this in mind, with my healing process center, and my first year teaching in mind, I have to leave and join an environment more appropriate for a new teacher who needs mentorship and guidance. Not solely, someone who has a leadership titled but is expected to babysit and enforce rules rather than see colleauges as collaborators. Overall, just a toxic environment. Unfortunately, the school would benefit from some positive and progressive changes but I am not sure I can stay around to suggest them. I genuinely wish the best for AAA and the few people I met there were incredible people whom I will keep in touch with upon my return to the states.
In peace,
M
until then,
m
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